The time that happens in every young adults life, and yet it swiftly comes to bite you in the ass when you least expect it. This year I will be graduating High School, and will therefore have to make up my indecisive mind on what the fuck it is that I will be doing with the rest of my life. How is it that I could run through all those years and all of those problems with no damage done?
This weekend was my last hurrah for summer. I went to my old hometown to hang out with my best friend, Ethan. After a couple beers and a lot of motivation on his part we went hopping from pool to pool in his neighborhood. God, I never feel more alive than when I'm out doing stupid crazy shit with my friends. Will it, however, have to end with this summer? Next year I may live in a different state, with different views on life, with different friends and a new goal: the future.
All my life I have tried to stay focused on the present, and now I have to worry about the rest of my life? It is ridiculous, it is mind blowing. I don't want a conventional job. I don't want to be a walking suit with no real aspirations other than getting that raise he's had an eye on for so long.
I want to live my life independantly from all the big corporations and money hungry consumers. But I'm just a tiny fish swimming for my life against the greedy sharks. I just have to pray to god that I can hold out for just a little more time.
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